Life as an Entreprenuers Wife

Bottom line?  It can sometimes be lonely.  Sometimes you feel like the luckiest person alive and sometimes you just feel alone.  I have never found a great way to deal with this loneliness.  Before we had Grayson I could predict when Doug would have a few busy months and so I would book my own schedule solid so that I wouldn't notice.  This was a different kind of lonely, but our fierce loyalty to one another, and our willingness to let each other live their dreams made it work.  Every year or so the big question of kids would come up and we would decide that we needed to wait for a better time.  It was the right decision.  Every year.  Then I realized my window to have children with my soul mate and the absolute best person I know was coming to a close.   We just needed to make it work.
We had watched Doug's business partner and his wife have 2 beautiful boys during our journey together and always wondered just HOW they managed to make it work.  We weren't sure we were made of the right stuff. 
We had a choice to make and we kind of just leapt.

It was the right choice, but it is a struggle every single day.

This past weekend was the first real chance in MONTHS Doug and I have had time to talk about names for our little girl, him to put up a baby gate, and to really TALK.  The stuff that makes us work, has definitely taken a back seat.  We sometimes don't talk during the week.  He always comes home to see G for an hour before he goes to bed and give me a second to breathe, but then it is just time to go to bed to start again at 5AM.  Often there are emails to answer or phone calls to have, these are the things that make a company go. I trust Doug, he always makes time for what is most important, there are just a lot of important stuff going on always.  Also this new phase in Mastery Connect is uncharted waters for us all. 
Relationships within the company are morphing and whether we like to admit it or not it affects our life outside of work.  There really is no choice.  Start up life is just that:  a different kind of life.  One we have always loved, still do love, but we are trying to figure out how to make everything work.

It is a work in progress but I just found a new to me blog that is discussing the very issues that are rolling around in our heads and taking over parts of our life.

Feld Thoughts
also his book
Startup Life, how to survive a relationship with an Entrepreneur

have become great resources for this Wife of an Entrepreneur. Grateful that there are others out there struggling through this amazing, albeit sometimes lonely life we have chosen.